๏ผ the silence is, for once, excoriating. it is not always peaceable or pleasant, but it rarely cuts the way it does now, knifeblade hewing to the marrow.
worse than shikamaru's belief is blue trying to intimate that the fault did not lie solely with him. he can rationally pick apart the circumstances of his life and recognize the fact that he was simply a pawn in the hands of those older and more powerful than he had been back then. that he was pushed into an impossible situation, that there was no other choice. refusal would have meant death, and danzล would have moved onto sasuke. the idea of his brother in that man's hands is unconscionable. he would have done worse than orochimaru, who at the very least never pretended decency.
he rubs his left thumb across the opposite palm. he took a kunai through it, many years ago, when tenma was still alive, before he had ever woken his eyes to the red of grief and loss. โ ๏ผ
The death I spoke of. ๏ผ blue will recall it, no doubt. ๏ผ It was in answer to my crimes.
๏ผ as much as he does not wish to elaborate any further, it is — he would prefer that blue, at the very least, know he did not evade consequence. he never had any intention of doing so — though he regrets using sasuke as he did to engineer it. he had thought it was the only way to bring him peace on the heels of a necessary evil. now... he is older and wiser than he was at thirteen, and he knows better. ๏ผ
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worse than shikamaru's belief is blue trying to intimate that the fault did not lie solely with him. he can rationally pick apart the circumstances of his life and recognize the fact that he was simply a pawn in the hands of those older and more powerful than he had been back then. that he was pushed into an impossible situation, that there was no other choice. refusal would have meant death, and danzล would have moved onto sasuke. the idea of his brother in that man's hands is unconscionable. he would have done worse than orochimaru, who at the very least never pretended decency.
he rubs his left thumb across the opposite palm. he took a kunai through it, many years ago, when tenma was still alive, before he had ever woken his eyes to the red of grief and loss. โ ๏ผ
The death I spoke of. ๏ผ blue will recall it, no doubt. ๏ผ It was in answer to my crimes.
๏ผ as much as he does not wish to elaborate any further, it is — he would prefer that blue, at the very least, know he did not evade consequence. he never had any intention of doing so — though he regrets using sasuke as he did to engineer it. he had thought it was the only way to bring him peace on the heels of a necessary evil. now... he is older and wiser than he was at thirteen, and he knows better. ๏ผ