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（ in the wake of that sharing he simply feels... hollowed out, empty. exhaustion creeps back in, catching at the edges of his mind like a child might tug at the hem of a parents' shirt to get their attention.
his eyes are dry. he has not cried since that night, and it is not a weakness he wishes to tear open anew. but — ）
I do not regret what I did.
（ he might have gone on to be a good person, once. but that possibility is well behind him. he would kill them all again to secure sasuke's future. he would do worse if necessary. ）
his eyes are dry. he has not cried since that night, and it is not a weakness he wishes to tear open anew. but — ）
I do not regret what I did.
（ he might have gone on to be a good person, once. but that possibility is well behind him. he would kill them all again to secure sasuke's future. he would do worse if necessary. ）
[the conflict starts to drain out of his expression, his own weight of weariness sinking in.
after a beat:] You all...deserved better. [no child should suffer so. none. there's no good excuse for it.
he exhales out in a soft huff.]
If anything...could ever truly be changed... [that torment needs to.]
after a beat:] You all...deserved better. [no child should suffer so. none. there's no good excuse for it.
he exhales out in a soft huff.]
If anything...could ever truly be changed... [that torment needs to.]
[no, but... in a just world...!
sigh. even he knows the answer to that kind of thought. so in the end...this young man accepted all the heinous, nightmarish things of his life...for the sake of his brother's.
it's...not the most unbelievable thing, even if the particular bond brotherhood creates is still something foreign, especially one so soaked in blood and strife.
Blue hangs his head, closing his eyes.
what is deserved...what i even wish...]
sigh. even he knows the answer to that kind of thought. so in the end...this young man accepted all the heinous, nightmarish things of his life...for the sake of his brother's.
it's...not the most unbelievable thing, even if the particular bond brotherhood creates is still something foreign, especially one so soaked in blood and strife.
Blue hangs his head, closing his eyes.
what is deserved...what i even wish...]
（ he doesn't want to play coy, it is more that he is having difficulty articulating what it is he wishes to say in any meaningful way. every word of this conversation has been an act of will for him, a contravention of all his instincts. he would, quite honestly, rather have his nails pulled from their beds. but he is committed, and he has never flinched from any task he has set for himself. ）
Anyone in my clan who has the same eyes that I have would be compatible. I asked for Shisui's, but due to the circumstances of his death they would be difficult to retrieve.
She compromised by offering me access to my father's. That was the nature of the alarm you felt.
Anyone in my clan who has the same eyes that I have would be compatible. I asked for Shisui's, but due to the circumstances of his death they would be difficult to retrieve.
She compromised by offering me access to my father's. That was the nature of the alarm you felt.
No fault lies with her.
（ is he just the slightest bit protective of viveca? maybe. ）
The options are limited, and the offer she made was correct, logistically speaking. It was more that it was not a possibility I had considered. My own lack of foresight was to blame.
（ is he just the slightest bit protective of viveca? maybe. ）
The options are limited, and the offer she made was correct, logistically speaking. It was more that it was not a possibility I had considered. My own lack of foresight was to blame.
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