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That would be one hell of a dream.
But I can assure you I'm not some figment of your imagination. As much as a lot of the things here sure feel like they can't be real, sometimes...!
But I can assure you I'm not some figment of your imagination. As much as a lot of the things here sure feel like they can't be real, sometimes...!
（ it is perhaps nine in the morning — late for him, but he is being mindful of the fact that not everyone is awake as perilously early as he is.
blue will hear somethingin the drift telepathically — a mild and singular utterance of his name. itachi is not a psychic, but he has extraordinary discipline, and is keenly meditative. he is in fact sitting agura on his bed, body lax and chakra focused, hands held in the zenjō-in position. ）
blue will hear something
[it's extremely rare to get that kind of prompting anymore, not without someone seeing him from nearby. Blue takes a minute to look around himself in the sun room, and, finding the source isn't even there...]
Ah... Itachi? That notion is you, isn't it?
Ah... Itachi? That notion is you, isn't it?
Yes.
（ it is harder to hide his feelings when he is deliberately seeking out this bond: what bleeds through the connection is weary tolerance and the neutral, grim tolerance that he wears like a cloak.
this is a skill like any other, and it may be useful to have. thus, he is here. ）
I am surprised I could reach you like this.
（ how long......... was he trying........? ）
（ it is harder to hide his feelings when he is deliberately seeking out this bond: what bleeds through the connection is weary tolerance and the neutral, grim tolerance that he wears like a cloak.
this is a skill like any other, and it may be useful to have. thus, he is here. ）
I am surprised I could reach you like this.
（ how long......... was he trying........? ）
Please do not call me that.
（ it is not something he would have said aloud. instead, the message is a transliteration of the intense and jagged flash of self-loathing that cuts through his reserve. if he were at all remarkable, he would not have failed. ）
（ it is not something he would have said aloud. instead, the message is a transliteration of the intense and jagged flash of self-loathing that cuts through his reserve. if he were at all remarkable, he would not have failed. ）
No - this is...how it works. Normally.
That is, it's what I'm used to.
It was only a surprise...because no one calls to me this way anymore.
[Blue is far less keen on being so guarded, so there is the faintest suggestion of loneliness from that thought. Itachi's lucky he can't get the whole psionic serving of it, really.]
That is, it's what I'm used to.
It was only a surprise...because no one calls to me this way anymore.
[Blue is far less keen on being so guarded, so there is the faintest suggestion of loneliness from that thought. Itachi's lucky he can't get the whole psionic serving of it, really.]
（ he is aware of that loneliness, the way it clings in the cobwebs of their conversation like something spun out of sorrow and grief. it is like a drop in an ocean of the very same — itachi has been alone most of his life, but loneliness did not truly take root in him until shisui died, and then it was a wild, cacophonic thing that slipped beneath his skin like a knife-blade, twisting into muscle and sinew and grating on bone.
it is a pain he can only endure. he does not know any other way. ）
I thought it prudent to make the attempt. Our next mission may require it.
it is a pain he can only endure. he does not know any other way. ）
I thought it prudent to make the attempt. Our next mission may require it.
I have spent much of my life around those with considerable power. Does your ego require stroking, that you would ask me to elaborate more specifically?
（ his words are not chosen quite as carefully, quite as inoffensively as when that slight barrier of thinking before speech exists.
this is conversation and he's rawdogging it, whoops. ）
（ his words are not chosen quite as carefully, quite as inoffensively as when that slight barrier of thinking before speech exists.
this is conversation and he's rawdogging it, whoops. ）
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