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[personal profile] groupiedrifter 2021-12-08 09:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Just didn't wanna let you guys down
Or make you feel like I could let you down.
being a liability or - whatever people might think.



But I guess that's not just it
I figured if I ignored it, maybe it'd go away.
Easier than entertaining the thought that maybe I gave myself some brain damage or something dramatic.
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[personal profile] groupiedrifter 2021-12-08 09:32 pm (UTC)(link)
Right.
No, I know. I do. It's just
yeah
You're right, though.


And it's a presence... kinda?
Or in theory, anyway.
I think I know what you might've dealt with.
Did you see it? The kaiju?
The first time I had a seizure, it was a lot like that.
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[personal profile] groupiedrifter 2021-12-08 09:40 pm (UTC)(link)
Could've been
could've been multiple kaiju.
I've been in all their heads, technically.

I had entered their minds before to get important information, info that helped stop them from killing humanity, you know? But I think it mightve
fried my brain a little
short-circuited it.

What you saw was a lot like how it felt to enter their minds.
It's an overload. And then they knew I was there, it got worse.
They didn't want me there, either.
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[personal profile] groupiedrifter 2021-12-08 09:49 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeaaaah... kinda was 50/50 on whether I was gonna make it or not
It wasn't my best day at self-preservation
But fortune favors the brave

Mostly.


[Absolutely certifiably insane, yes.]

Good news, it helped me save the planet!
So worth it, right?
If i end up with a seizure disorder, that's a kind of small price in comparison, isn't it???
And it WORKED, everyone said I couldn't do it but I DID
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[personal profile] groupiedrifter 2021-12-08 10:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Easier said than done I guess.
I've always been kind of bad at thinking about my health
uh, I guess I just always figured whatever happens happens.

Kind of stupid thought process but I never claimed to have a PhD in common sense.
Finally old enough that it's exhausting, what a milestone.

What about you? People're making sure you're good?
What happened to YOU?

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[personal profile] groupiedrifter 2021-12-08 10:16 pm (UTC)(link)
[Ooooh, yeah... he's gonna get an earful alright... Rest in piss, Newton.]

right...
You might've gotten a face-full of drift.
The kaiju is a really complex system of creatures, drifting with them, it's
different than drifting with a human
their minds are all connected

I think I'll always have a little part of them with me
That's kind of the scary thing.
But I think uh
I think medicine can help
until Bones figures out a way to 'cure' the physical effects its had on me
if there's such a thing.

It hurt you, though?
like, physically???
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[personal profile] groupiedrifter 2021-12-08 10:26 pm (UTC)(link)
That's a relief
I was worried that
I mean, I don't know exactly how your abilities work
I thought maybe things hurt you differently

It was a...... bad time, so I'm guessing I contributed a lot to that dread
I was kind of stuck in images from the drift for a while.
So I'm guessing we saw the same things at the same time.
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[personal profile] groupiedrifter 2021-12-08 10:49 pm (UTC)(link)
Buddy, I don't think it's safe to confirm at ALL
Like, you're 1000% not going back into my brain to check
I'm not gonna let you hurt yourself because of my issues.
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[personal profile] groupiedrifter 2021-12-08 10:51 pm (UTC)(link)
You promise?
No getting yourself tangled up in my problems
I'll seriously cry into a pillow if you mess yourself up trying.
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[personal profile] groupiedrifter 2021-12-08 11:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Okay, okay, how about this:
If I'm flopping around on the floor having some health crisis, avoid my weird damaged brain from now on, okay?
👍👍👍👍
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[personal profile] groupiedrifter 2021-12-08 11:21 pm (UTC)(link)
Do or do not, there is no try.


I'm kidding
uh, but

Thanks
For trying
For worrying, I mean
And caring.
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[personal profile] groupiedrifter 2021-12-08 11:36 pm (UTC)(link)
Dude seriously?
just worrying about me means you did right by me.
That's all I really want from my friends.
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[personal profile] groupiedrifter 2021-12-08 11:45 pm (UTC)(link)
Huh???
What risk you pose?
You didn't do anything wrong, I posed a risk to my health, not you.
Of course you're my friend, man.

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