[ it's a feeling marta can sympathize with. finding herself here, among so many others who feel larger than life, she's wondered more than once how she could ever keep up. ]
Nobody ever wants to feel like a burden.
[ her tone remains gentle, but firm. ]
But... you're not well. That fact doesn't change, even with your best intentions. Trust that the people who care about you wouldn't see you any differently. And that they'd want to know. Because you shouldn't have to suffer alone either.
[turns out, many of those larger-than-life sorts can barely keep up with themselves half the time. such is life.
trust them, she says. they'd want to know. she isn't wrong, but...]
Until I know...what can even be done...I don't want them lost in the unknown with me. I don't want...their care and kindness tainted by despair for my sake.
[ marta nods, knowing decisions like these can never be easy. torn between wanting to protect and respect those you care for, but feeling just as hopeless regardless. ]
Until then, you have at least one person who knows. So don't feel like you have to be alone in your own despair, okay?
[her hand hasn't left his wrist, even knowing how some of his power works. yet even without that contact, her convictions are clear, clear as her words.]
If I have anything I can still give...gratitude, at least...
[ she smiles at him, even though he can't see it. resolving to stay until he fully drifts off, marta makes herself a little more comfortable at his side. ]
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Nobody ever wants to feel like a burden.
[ her tone remains gentle, but firm. ]
But... you're not well. That fact doesn't change, even with your best intentions. Trust that the people who care about you wouldn't see you any differently. And that they'd want to know. Because you shouldn't have to suffer alone either.
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trust them, she says. they'd want to know. she isn't wrong, but...]
Until I know...what can even be done...I don't want them lost in the unknown with me. I don't want...their care and kindness tainted by despair for my sake.
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Until then, you have at least one person who knows. So don't feel like you have to be alone in your own despair, okay?
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[Blue lifts his eyes to her.]
This isn't...something you need to carry. But...you mean to anyway, don't you.
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But... if you're ever feeling like it's all too much, you don't have to think twice about leaning on me. That's all.
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If I have anything I can still give...gratitude, at least...
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I'll take it.
But compassion doesn't usually come at a cost. Maybe remember that.
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[he nods all the same before closing his eyes.]
Thank you, Marta. For that compassion.
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[ she smiles at him, even though he can't see it. resolving to stay until he fully drifts off, marta makes herself a little more comfortable at his side. ]