[ That's unexpected. To say at least. Honestly, a little terrifying that it's even possible. ]
Ah. That's... kind? of ya. But I was just whining to commiserate, not saying that as a literal wish. Can't say I've seen worse, but definitely had a brush with it.
[ There used to be a lot of gruesome scary stories about what can happen to disobedient grunts in the clan. And then he got to be that grunt.
It's what humanity chose where I'm from, yes. Among other things. And I admit I'm glad you didn't consent...so long as you won't be hurt by those memories in the future.
I don't think I will. And even if I was— hurting is just a part of life. Bet there's an idiom about not being able to appreciate good without the bad, or something like that.
What, ya guys just delete things out of yer memory? Like all of you back home were capable of that?
It's a power only I have among my people. Perhaps ironically so, since it was a machine stripping my memories away that triggered the awakening of my powers. So I could be no better than the wicked thing that made me this way.
That's... that's just horrible. I ain't gonna pretend I can imagine how it feels like, I'm just livid a machine like this exist, and they did something like this to ya.
If you mean what you say, I thank you. It is still strange to feel compassion from humans; where I am from, their opinions have been curated to despise my kind.
Well, if ya decide to hang around for a bit longer... plenty of chances for exactly that. Feels like I'm learning something new everyday, and it's been a while.
I ain't gonna pry, if that's what ya wanna change— the part where everyone hates ya for what ya are. But over here? In this team? Unless ya give someone a reason, they're gonna keep assuming the best of ya.
A little tricky, perhaps. I apologize. It just seems strange...would being called patient be that novel? It was all you seemed to exude while walking the floor.
That was my "work face" on. I gotta behave like that while in this line of work. Between you and me? It's the most exhausting part of it. I ain't really like that when I'm off the clock
[ Patience? What patience? He pauses, just before launching into an explanation, on how the work face is on the floor, in the club, but then— it's also in the gang. And it's not like he's entirely unrestrained while with the team, so that's just— not the level of introspection he is ready for
So he mentally huffs ]
Ahhhh think whatchya wanna think, I ain't gonna turn down a gratitude mind you. Good currency
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When this is over...if you wish, I can erase those images. The ones I gave you.
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Ah. That's... kind? of ya. But I was just whining to commiserate, not saying that as a literal wish. Can't say I've seen worse, but definitely had a brush with it.
[ There used to be a lot of gruesome scary stories about what can happen to disobedient grunts in the clan. And then he got to be that grunt.
Still there's a lingering curiosity ]
Have you done that before?
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[...]
It seems to be why I am here at all. [his regret.]
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And I admit I'm glad you didn't consent...so long as you won't be hurt by those memories in the future.
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What, ya guys just delete things out of yer memory? Like all of you back home were capable of that?
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Perhaps ironically so, since it was a machine stripping my memories away that triggered the awakening of my powers. So I could be no better than the wicked thing that made me this way.
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It is still strange to feel compassion from humans; where I am from, their opinions have been curated to despise my kind.
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It's something I will have to learn with time. If there is time to learn at all.
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I ain't gonna pry, if that's what ya wanna change— the part where everyone hates ya for what ya are. But over here? In this team? Unless ya give someone a reason, they're gonna keep assuming the best of ya.
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[ An attempt no1 to lighten a mood by some teasing ]
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[imagine being able to get away scott-free with a tease like that...not in THIS house]
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Wait. That a trick question?
I don't think it's really possible to treat everyone the same way
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I apologize. It just seems strange...would being called patient be that novel?
It was all you seemed to exude while walking the floor.
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[ Now he gets it ]
That was my "work face" on. I gotta behave like that while in this line of work. Between you and me? It's the most exhausting part of it. I ain't really like that when I'm off the clock
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[ Heh... It's a useful skill. A weapon— more like a shield. But keep acting for three years, and shit gets blurry ]
It doesn't bother me here. It's temporary and for the greater good.
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Even if it is for your "work face," I appreciate your patience.
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[ Patience? What patience? He pauses, just before launching into an explanation, on how the work face is on the floor, in the club, but then— it's also in the gang. And it's not like he's entirely unrestrained while with the team, so that's just— not the level of introspection he is ready for
So he mentally huffs ]
Ahhhh think whatchya wanna think, I ain't gonna turn down a gratitude mind you. Good currency
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That was a joke, and aside for it— thanks. We got our work cut out for us.