[Yuri doesn't need the empathy he's offering to know Blue's been getting anxious more and more as he and Flynn have been increasingly more absent in the waking hours. Blue understands their intentions, their convictions...but it still stings to be left alone, to have only a scant-few waking hours with them, left to worry over their dreams until his own weariness forces him away, only for him to wake to an empty home once again. he can assuage his fears by taking small walks, to even projecting his mind out to where they wander, but...
but they should be home. safe. with him. it should be enough.
...it's not enough. he's not enough. what a wicked thought - a bent, crooked truth which is angled so the shadow it casts is far greater than its true scale. mountains from molehills, indeed.
they're gone right now, so it is only he and that shadow who sees the surprising string of notices. Blue reads them over multiple times with care, quietly and aloud, just to make sure he understands their meaning (the truest intentions will always be face-to-face, and he will likely have to wait for another nightfall for that).]
You mean to create a permanent, telepathic link together? As Mu do. I would be biased in my answer...you already know it. [unequivocally yes.]
[ Yuri doesn't look at his Omni right away, because he might just keep checking it if he does. So he gets to work, cooking a more than adequate meal for the training camp, even though his eyes keep straying to the Omni.
It's strange, to create such an ultimatum of a question without seeing the other participants face to face.
With the stew on a simmer, Yuri finally gives in and lets himself look at the Omni, seeing responses from Flynn and Blue. His heart is in his throat and he's regretting asking (this might be it, he was too much, asked for too much) (but they love you, they want you to be happy, they've both said it). He reads through their messages, then reads through them again, and a different kind of nervousness settles in his gut.
They said yes. They both want to do it. At least, Blue does, and Flynn sounds like he does, he just needs more information. (they'll be too close, know too much, see right through him) (they already do, they can feel all of his feelings, see his thoughts, they know him maybe better than he knows himself).
Hands shaking a little, he manages to respond: ]
yeah permanent empathetic link i dont think its thoughts just feelings
its a ritual a blood pact you make a potion and say some vows at sunset and then youre bonded
i read a thing about it ill bring it home
[ Which is probably surprising in and of itself. Yuri doesn't read, as a rule, but he had to know more, had the compulsion to know more about this because he suddenly wanted it, wanted it so very badly. He wants to have a family, to be that close with people, closer than humans usually can be. He wants that reassurance he's been getting from Flynn when they're in bed together, the love that radiates off of him.
Maybe this is selfish. Maybe they shouldn't do it, because it's selfish. He just wants to know that they want him there. ]
i thought it would be nice for you blue since were not like the mu but this could make us feel a little more like your home
It sends that warm thing fluttering even more brightly, makes Flynn smile down at the smooth surface of his Omni. There is something else there too, something under the surface of Yuri's too-careless words. He only gets dismissive like that when he's trying to deflect and push away from the truth at the core of him, and Flynn has seen a little into his feelings recently to the depth of his own fear about himself. Yuri sees himself as a black thing, blotting out light.
Funny, because when Flynn looks at him all he sees are stars. ]
I think it's a wonderful idea.
[ To give Yuri space, because that he's willingly offering this up: a gateway into the dark parts of himself... that's still settling.
A family, connected, linked at their cores by magic.
It sounds like a very permanent sort of thing. The kind of thing that he'd want Yuri and Blue to be very sure of, choosing him like this. It sounds a little like marriage, bonding and vows, but Flynn can't think any further down that path at all. ]
After all, this is our home, and it will be for the forseeable future.
[had Blue an ounce of shame for emotions in his body, maybe he'd be glad no one can see him cry? but as it stands, the tears don't care if there's an audience or not. it's fine; they're designed to be a comfort for him. the comfort of embracing these two godsends will have to wait until nightfall.]
[ Yuri can't know how Blue is feeling, and his mind is still telling him that this was stupid to suggest, they're just being nice but (they would tell you, you trust them) (Blue said he misses it, why wouldn't he want this?) he wouldn't want it with Yuri, would he (but he's told you he sees you and still wants to be around you) (Flynn feels the same, you've felt it).
The thoughts fight each other in his mind and he stares at the words that Flynn and Blue sent to him. ]
ill figure out how we do this but if you change your minds thats okay
[ Because he doesn't want to make them. It's a big decision, one that Yuri is strangely sure of. He's sure of wanting it, and when he's that sure, his brain doesn't try to fight him with it. He wants it, it's just a question if Flynn and Blue want to put up with his feelings all the time ]
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but they should be home. safe. with him. it should be enough.
...it's not enough. he's not enough. what a wicked thought - a bent, crooked truth which is angled so the shadow it casts is far greater than its true scale. mountains from molehills, indeed.
they're gone right now, so it is only he and that shadow who sees the surprising string of notices. Blue reads them over multiple times with care, quietly and aloud, just to make sure he understands their meaning (the truest intentions will always be face-to-face, and he will likely have to wait for another nightfall for that).]
You mean to create a permanent, telepathic link together? As Mu do.
I would be biased in my answer...you already know it. [unequivocally yes.]
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It's strange, to create such an ultimatum of a question without seeing the other participants face to face.
With the stew on a simmer, Yuri finally gives in and lets himself look at the Omni, seeing responses from Flynn and Blue. His heart is in his throat and he's regretting asking (this might be it, he was too much, asked for too much) (but they love you, they want you to be happy, they've both said it). He reads through their messages, then reads through them again, and a different kind of nervousness settles in his gut.
They said yes. They both want to do it. At least, Blue does, and Flynn sounds like he does, he just needs more information. (they'll be too close, know too much, see right through him) (they already do, they can feel all of his feelings, see his thoughts, they know him maybe better than he knows himself).
Hands shaking a little, he manages to respond: ]
yeah
permanent empathetic link
i dont think its thoughts just feelings
its a ritual
a blood pact
you make a potion
and say some vows at sunset
and then youre bonded
i read a thing about it
ill bring it home
[ Which is probably surprising in and of itself. Yuri doesn't read, as a rule, but he had to know more, had the compulsion to know more about this because he suddenly wanted it, wanted it so very badly. He wants to have a family, to be that close with people, closer than humans usually can be. He wants that reassurance he's been getting from Flynn when they're in bed together, the love that radiates off of him.
Maybe this is selfish. Maybe they shouldn't do it, because it's selfish. He just wants to know that they want him there. ]
i thought it would be nice for you blue
since were not like the mu
but this could make us feel a little more like your home
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It sends that warm thing fluttering even more brightly, makes Flynn smile down at the smooth surface of his Omni. There is something else there too, something under the surface of Yuri's too-careless words. He only gets dismissive like that when he's trying to deflect and push away from the truth at the core of him, and Flynn has seen a little into his feelings recently to the depth of his own fear about himself. Yuri sees himself as a black thing, blotting out light.
Funny, because when Flynn looks at him all he sees are stars. ]
I think it's a wonderful idea.
[ To give Yuri space, because that he's willingly offering this up: a gateway into the dark parts of himself... that's still settling.
A family, connected, linked at their cores by magic.
It sounds like a very permanent sort of thing. The kind of thing that he'd want Yuri and Blue to be very sure of, choosing him like this. It sounds a little like marriage, bonding and vows, but Flynn can't think any further down that path at all. ]
After all, this is our home, and it will be for the forseeable future.
I would like that home to be with you both.
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I would like that too.
Very much.
Thank you.
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The thoughts fight each other in his mind and he stares at the words that Flynn and Blue sent to him. ]
ill figure out how we do this
but if you change your minds
thats okay
[ Because he doesn't want to make them. It's a big decision, one that Yuri is strangely sure of. He's sure of wanting it, and when he's that sure, his brain doesn't try to fight him with it. He wants it, it's just a question if Flynn and Blue want to put up with his feelings all the time ]